Blessed

I don't know how I am going to breathe when Austin goes off into his life. This has to be exactly how my grandma felt when Uncle Pat went into the Navy. He is my safe place where I can just be myself and everything is calm and right. I feel like Im losing my best friend in the whole world. Jordy that little stinker he is my little man but sometimes he needs a total karate chop and it is just so different with my oldest child. He's my baby, I became a mom and my life changed with him, everything was a first with him and there is just something special between us. It's not favorites it's just that peaceful easy feeling that is completely lacking when he is not around. Im so excited for him and I know he will do a fabulous job in the Navy. Navy People do you know what you're getting? He is an angel, he is the perfect son, and the perfect student, the perfect football player, he's above the rest and everyone who knows him absolutely adores him. He's that special. He's bright and hilareous and cool and full of integrity and honesty and backbone. He doesnt take any crap whatsoever but his heart shines through and you can instantly tell how decent and tenderhearted and kind he is. He's my baby and this is really going to hurt to let him go off in the world and grow up and be his own person. I know I did a good job just because we're at this milestone. Thank you God for my children, I am so blessed and lucky. They are the best thing I ever did and the very best part of me.