Workout world!

It's time to get it on! Happy Spring and getting ready for a Great Summer! I'm going to be on a plane to see my son and if all goes well for me like last year then this is the year I am going to Paris! The scrapbook is already made I just need the pictures with me in them!!

My FALL GOAL 150 MILES before June 1st

Blessed

I don't know how I am going to breathe when Austin goes off into his life. This has to be exactly how my grandma felt when Uncle Pat went into the Navy. He is my safe place where I can just be myself and everything is calm and right. I feel like Im losing my best friend in the whole world. Jordy that little stinker he is my little man but sometimes he needs a total karate chop and it is just so different with my oldest child. He's my baby, I became a mom and my life changed with him, everything was a first with him and there is just something special between us. It's not favorites it's just that peaceful easy feeling that is completely lacking when he is not around. Im so excited for him and I know he will do a fabulous job in the Navy. Navy People do you know what you're getting? He is an angel, he is the perfect son, and the perfect student, the perfect football player, he's above the rest and everyone who knows him absolutely adores him. He's that special. He's bright and hilareous and cool and full of integrity and honesty and backbone. He doesnt take any crap whatsoever but his heart shines through and you can instantly tell how decent and tenderhearted and kind he is. He's my baby and this is really going to hurt to let him go off in the world and grow up and be his own person. I know I did a good job just because we're at this milestone. Thank you God for my children, I am so blessed and lucky. They are the best thing I ever did and the very best part of me.

Baisers, doux baisers savoureux

Je suis tout à coup reaquainted avec mon amour perdu depuis longtemps. Il voulait tout dire pour moi et j'ai oublié combien c'est merveilleux d'être senti dans ses bras, chaleureux, sécuritaire, à proximité, et de me baiser tendrement. Ce moment d'abandon, il était si douce et au bon moment est devenu sauvage comme un fou sur moi. Je t'aime, j'ai adoré cet homme donc, maintenant et toujours. Mon soldat Italien.

♥ ♥ ♥What a pretty Mermaid♥ ♥ ♥

Sweet memory

I spent some time this morning with an old friend and just brought back memories of a special time I had long ago put away. I couldn't help but smile to remember how it felt to be so young and wild and rediculously naive. Our group of friends were pretty close and his best friend was my special friend too. Years have gone by and I don't keep in contact with him anymore but I had this silly girly smile on my face. I could not stop thinking about those incredible nights and slowdancing at Trishas wedding and acting off in the clubs. His green truck at my house, up and down my street all hours of the day and night. Like a frozen moment in time shiny and sparkly and pure magic. He was so special to me and I wouldn't trade those moments together for anything in this world. You know, the way someone looks at you like a wolf, he just killed me with those big brown dreamy eyes and so tall and strong, snuggly warm and safe. Age 27, my favorite mistake.

Life is calling

I'm so excited, it's a little scary being "old" enough to know better now.. Seems like I have put all my own plans on hold and Paris is but a distant dream. I haven't had the chance to do the things on my list yet but life is calling. My baby is going into the Navy, My baby baby is almost a senior and then life will take a new road for me. I haven't had the time or resources to dote on myself or my hobbies or interests maybe ever. Not since I have been a mom at least and I can't deny the sparkly feeling behind the next door. I cant deny that Im excited and my life is taking a new direction and I have no intention of being idle. Ive done my job and set myself up for a nice transition, perfect credit, long term stable employment in a challenging field, Im focused on my health and taking good care of myself and being joyful. I am so blessed, the void in my life is someone special for me, but I'm sure God has big plans for me. I can hardly wait, Paris, Nice, Venice, Rome, Cannes, Greece, Tuscany, all the incredible places Im going to go, Florida, New Orleans, Hawaii, I can hardly wait. Ive enjoyed being a mom and loving my kids and focusing on them and making our memories special and as they go out into the world and make their way, I cheer for them and I cheer for me too. The golden moment is here again.. my life.

Amid a Crowd of Stars

William Butler Yeats:
When You Are Old

When you are old and grey and full of sleep,
And nodding by the fire, take down this book,
And slowly read, and dream of the soft look
Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep;

How many loved your moments of glad grace,
And loved your beauty with love false or true,
But one man loved the pilgrim Soul in you,
And loved the sorrows of your changing face;

And bending down beside the glowing bars,
Murmur, a little sadly, how Love fled
And paced upon the mountains overhead
And hid his face amid a crowd of stars.

At His Bidding

I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. [...] I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucke...d, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding.

-Anais Nin

Perfectly said.