Baby steps, new beginnings

I can't believe he did so good today and is sound asleep snoring in his little bed already! Louie and I walked half way around south park!! I have a new walking buddy and he got nice exercise today and I did too. I promised myself yesterday that I am ready to make this exercise mania official on Saturday and kick it off! Just baby steps is all it takes to build up that momentum and then bam you're working hard in a program and meeting goals. I'm so ready for spring, warm weather, long hair don't care and sunshine. Still trying to get rid of this flu and congestion and I have coughed so much I give my self an honest pounding headache every day but I am glad I kept my word and got out to start my weekend right! Austin was here overnight with Luke and I watched a movie with them called "A very long Engagement" about WW1 and it made me think of Grandma and Grandpa in WW2. What if our lives are recorded and those moments and people that are so important, maybe you didn't get to meet them or witness their stories. What if we get to heaven and literally you can walk in someone elses shoes and see what they saw and felt what they felt. What if it is all recorded and you can watch moments from a persons life. I would chose Abraham Lincoln at Gettysburg, and my Grandma Thomi sailing to America on a ship at 18 from Germany never to return- ever, she never saw or hugged her parents again in this lifetime, I would chose to see my grandpas grandmother Catherine the Gypsy and how she lived her life and traditions and celebrations and I would chose to be there when my grandpa George came home from the war to his wife and two little sons, the baby being my dad who he had yet to meet. Those moments, the special ones that define a life, I think it would be incredible if that was a part of heaven. It would make everything make sense because you can't really honestly know a person until you have walked in their shoes. I think it would be a lesson in forgiveness too because people do some mean thoughtless things and to be able to understand what was going on with them at the time and to be able to have compassion instead of judgment. Is that what they mean by the book of life? I hope so.

Song for my dad

Everytime I hear this song it makes me cry. It's exactly how I feel about my dad, I miss him so much and I'm the only one. It's not going to get any better and I have to accept it and go on.

Love Without End Amen

Happy Birthday!